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4/18/2013

Where does this sexual emotion come from?

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Open up to reasons far deeper then you expected to locate
  the region of sexual frustration. 


  









My husband is a very touchy feely type of man. 90% of
time that he passes by me in the house he touches me in some way. This may be a
soft and gently caress across the back or this can also be a hand sliding down
my shirt to touch, well lets call it what it really is, grab my boobs. I know he
  just wants to touch me and show me that he is sexually attracted to me
  still...after 13 years together...this is meant to be a beautiful gesture BUT
  at times this can activate an anger in me that feels like I could literally rip
  his arm off at the shoulder. WHERE does this emotion come from? I love my
  husband. He is my best friend. He is my partner in life. I want him to want to
  touch me, so where does this anger come from?

After some deep thought as well as speaking openly with
my Mom, I found out where this comes from. Could this be an inherited emotion
that my Mom use to feel when my biological abusive father, use to grab her in
this way? She was pregnant with me and would experience this exact emotion. The
  rage, the anger, the sadness of a man that treated her wrongly touching her in
  this sexual way. Could this emotion become a characteristic that I took a hold
  of? I took this pain and placed it firmly within my sexual dialogue.  I felt this emotion when I was in the
womb as well as seeing my mom respond this way the first year or two of my life.
Sex was not a beautiful amazing moment for her and these thoughts, feelings and
  emotions have found a place into my sexual life as well. 

When I first became sexually active ,at the age of 17, I
was always under some form of substance control. I loved smoking pot. For the
next 4 years of my life there was pounds of pot, this also lead to cocaine, with
an occasional mushroom trip splashed with a few acid trips, 
that turned into smoking crack which turned into the place where most
drug users end up...the world of crystal meth. I got out with determination,
will power and having a daughter that I know deserved a wonderful sober Mother.
I have been drug free for 13 years now. I now know that a lot of this substance
abuse was to mask the pain I felt sexually. 

Even in my marriage there was a good part of the time
that I would prefer to have a drink so I could be more liberated and open with
my sexual self. There is this sexual diva that comes out strong when I have had
a beer or 2 or a few crown and cokes. This sexual tigress arrives and she is on
  fire with passion, drive, determination and dominance. 

So I have choose to release the pain and sadness that I
  unconsciously decided to become part of my sexual story. I am still working
  through this process but now that I understand where it comes from it will be
  easier for me to release. This is just one small part of my sexual self. I have
  many other emotions and some sexual traumas as well that have really shifted my
  ability to see sex as I wish but I know I can get to that place with
  dedication, determination and will power.  

Where have some of your sexual emotions came from? Take a
  moment and see if you can find some answers. You can also email me at
  Cameo@mbsglow.com or message me on facebook @ www.facebook.com/mma4all ...I
  would love to give you insight and my opinion.


 

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