Shower, Sex and Tears! How Deep Penetration Made Me Cry!

Have you ever experienced an emotional release while you were in the act of sex?

Have you ever felt pain in your vaginal area from deep penetration?

Have you ever felt like you want to emotionally disconnect during sex ?

I wanted to share an experience I had just a few days ago.

It was early in the morning and I decided to take a shower. My husband decided to surprise me with the presence of him joining me.

Things were getting steamy. Sexual energy was in the air. We kissed, caressed and showered each other with sensual intimacy.

It was hot, spicy and super exciting.

Some deep vaginal penetration happened and BAM!!!!!

Here is what I experienced.

All of a sudden I felt sick to my stomach. It was such an intense sensation I had to crouch down in the shower. I started shaking and dry heaving. I had to take deep breathes and then rush myself over to the trash can as I felt like I was going to physically get sick. This sensation stayed with me for about 3-4 minutes and then whola! It was completely gone.  

This was an emotional release. I have held so much pain, shame and guilt in my vaginal area that some of it released with deep penetration.(My husband was super supportive and loved me through my emotional release process).

Energy and emotional experiences are stored in the body. They can be stored in the joints, muscles, organs and most sexual energy is stored in the vagina and or penis.

This energy must be released in order to have orgasmic sex. If heavy energy is in the sexual organs then we will become guarded and we will not be able to relax enough to achieve a deep orgasmic state.

Since my emotional shower release I have felt orgasmic energy while doing everyday task. I can now feel a sexual energy in my vaginal area while I am working out or driving in the car. It really feels very amazing.

If stagnant energy is blocking our ability to express our sexual wants and desires than we will feel sad, depressed and unhappy inside our marriage.

I have felt this inside my marriage and I can tell you that working on our sexual self in the best thing we can do to create a deep connection and long lasting happiness inside these sacred vows. Sex is something that we must take seriously and work on becoming the sensual goddesses and warriors we are.

We deserve to have great sex and to feel yummy about ourselves. We deserve to wake up connected to our sexual self. This is something that will absolutely change the way we operate on a daily basis. There may be some painful experiences as most of us are holding onto energy that keeps us from expressing our sexual soul.

Here are 3 things I would suggest to do to awaken and release your blocked energy.

1. Take time to softly touch your belly below the belly button. Sexual energy and sexual experiences ( good or bad) are stored in this area. While you are caressing this part of your body notice how you feel. Do you feel anxious? Do you feel angry? Do you feel sad? Do you feel numb? No need to judge. Just notice how you feel and acknowledge that it is okay and you are safe.
2. Take 10-15 minutes and recall your first sexual experiences. Did they create feelings of happiness? or did the create feelings of sadness? Did you feel confident? or did you feel insecure? Did you want to have this experience? or was it forced upon you? Take note of the answers and again do not judge, just acknowledge. This will assist in realizing where our core beliefs come from when it come to sex.
3. Stop guarding yourself during sex. Learn to be vulnerable. Open up to what your body wants to let go of as well as open up to what your body wants to express. Be open in the bedroom. If you want to move your hips to get the energy flowing then by all means move those hips. If you feel like you are going to cry while you are having sex then by all means cry. If you feel like you want to tease your man in the bedroom then by all means tease away. There are no right or wrongs in the bedroom. It is a place of self discovery and physical connection. Be open. Don't be afraid of your own feelings.

We are sexual beings. I want and crave amazing sex. I crave an intimate connection to myself and with my husband that is so deep and so expressive. I want to be vulnerable and I want to be orgasmic. I love being sexual inside my marriage. We have been together for 16 years next month and sex is still something that is always on my mind and always on my husbands mind. It may have created sadness and tears at times and it has also created electric moments of blissful yumminess. I am not saying it is easy but I am saying it is worth it. To have amazing sex and feel comfortable expressing yourself sexually is one of the greatest things in life. 

Great sex is our birthright. Start your journey today.




 

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