So I opened up to my husband and asked him to give me some space in the sexual area of our relationship. We still hug, hold hands, kiss and sit super close to one another on the couch but now I am allowed internally to relax into these moments. I am feeling spiritually connected in these moments. I am present. I am allowing. I am loving. I feel free. I feel free to be me and allow these wonderful moments of connection and love to flow through me. I feel more connected to who I am as a person in the last few weeks. If we are having sex and in this loving moment we are feeling angry and disconnected then we get to take some time away from the nakedness of the relationship. Be open through this sexual, emotional experience with your spouse. Let them know about your life experiences when it comes to sex and share personal and in depth stories. When we open up to one another then we can work through and release blocks. If your spouse knows why you would like some time to just be in the marriage without sexual expectations then they will know it is not them that you are denying. It will be hard for them as I know it is hard for my hubby but I know that he loves, respects and cherishes me as a person. He wants me to be happy, healthy and whole. He wants me to feel and experience the beautiful, spiritual sexual realm. He knows that I am experiencing something very emotional and very personal. He is allowing me to ....BE.
I am so grateful to have such an amazing husband. I am so grateful to have the most amazing life partner . I am so grateful to have the best friend a girl could ever have. I am grateful to experience this life with Jeff...we are kindred souls. Don't be afraid to share your feelings with your spouse. Open up and allow your life to be shared and experienced with one another. Don't hide and shut down. Be brave, be connected, be honest, be sincere and be yourself. In a marriage we want to support and love one another. This moment in our marriage has been inspiring and transformational. I love and respect Jeff more and more with each passing day. I know he was meant for me and I was meant for him. I know this connection took place so we could learn exactly what we wanted to learn when it comes to an emotional, physical, sexual and spiritual relationship. Thank you baby for loving me just the way I am right at this moment.