I am starting to really notice the duality I feel when it comes to sex. There is
this part of me that is super spiritual and connected to God. This part of me
that wants sex with my husband to be pure, romantic, connected and special. This
part of me wants sex to be emotional and euphoric. This part of me knows that my
husband and I can have the most intimate, amazing, out of this world sexual
connection. This is the part of me that I know is true BUT there is this other
part of me. I am not going to deem this part wrong as I am just taking it for
what it is. This other part of me wants to stop focusing on the spiritual side
of sex and just focus on being down and dirty. This part of me wants to watch an
erotic film with my husband, bring toys into the bedroom, hire a dancer for
my husband as I sit and watch with anticipation and excitement. This part of me
is the part that has bought into the social aspect of all the sexual images that
are flashed before my eyes on a daily basis. This part of me I find exciting and then
I also find scary and dangerous. The duality of sex can really cause confusion
and create disconnection in our hearts, souls and minds. The spiritual side of
sex can be beautiful and wonderful but also can also take patients and a time
commitment if you have been living with disconnected sex.
Sex can become like a diet...you try and stay focused and committed to achieving
your end result but it can be easy to fall back into your old habits.
Duality is found in everything. We get to love and accept ourselves where we are at the
present moment. Know that we will create the best decision with Gods assistance
for ourselves and not condemn or be ashamed in the process. Life is an
experience. Sex is amazing and should be something we focus on so we can create
the love and connection we deserve to create with our spouse. When we are
feeling disconnected and falling back into our old habits we get to decide if
this is going to serve our mission and accomplish our end goal. Duality in sex
is normal and understandable. Be conscious of your choices and be responsible
for actions. Focus on what you want in your sexual relationship and do not allow
anything to enter that will not serve your highest purpose.
you for reading this...really putting myself out there with this blog...hope
others can relate!