Orgasmic Meditation has completely shifted my sexual energy to a higher more connected space. I feel a sense of earthiness with sensations of expanding pleasure. I feel sensual and awakened to the beauty of receiving with openness and awareness. I feel absolutely amazing when it comes to being intimate. I look forward to every moment my husband and I can connect on this powerful level. Sex is the purest form of creative energy that we as a couple can tap into. Orgasmic meditation has allowed me to tap into parts of myself that I never know existed. The parts of my feminine self that is head over heels excited to share myself with my husband. The masculine requires the feminine and the feminine requires the masculine and when we share these energies openly we both receive so much pleasure.

​I wanted to share my experience of asking my husband if he would like to receive during the OM session. Orgasmic meditation is based around the woman getting stroked and the man being the one that strokes, but on day 20 I felt called to ask my husband if he would like to receive during this orgasmic meditation session.

​This was such a beautiful experience!

​He laid down on his back undressed from the waist down. I remained fully clothed. I applied some lube and started stroking extremely light strokes. I focused on the top inch of the penis as this is the area with the most sensation. I gently stroked his penis for 15 minutes.  Then the timer went off and we do a grounding step to ground the energy that is felt during the practice. We then share what we felt during the session and then he got dressed.

Here is what was so amazing about this practice for men receiving and woman giving

• ​I got to gently touch his penis with no expectations of anything happening
• I touched his penis so softly, a light feather stroke just for him to feel sensation
  
• I was able to really look at his cock. I was connected and focused
  
• He was able to just lay back and receive with no expectations. He just received 15 minutes of focused attention from me. I was focused on his manhood. Caressing it, loving it, touching it and stroking it.
  
• I enjoyed giving as much as I enjoy receiving
  
• I felt this energy that he deserves to be seen and loved just as much as I do. Sometimes we can easily see the man without seeing the whole man.
  
• I loved giving him something no one else has ever given him. A soft stroke for 15 minutes that is just for him to feel sensual sensations.
  
• I love the vulnerability we both share in this orgasmic meditation space
  
• I love that I see his penis in all of his glory. Soft, hard, big, small, fully erect or partially erect. It is truly inspiring in all of its forms.
  

​This is such an amazing experience with the most raw and real connection. As a man and a wife, I suggest all married couples start orgasmic meditation. I feel if we were all more sexually satisfied inside our marriages we would have so much love and compassion in the world.

​Start today. I promise you wont regret it.

Wow this practice has been the most amazing meditation practice I have ever experienced in my entire life.

​I have felt moments of vulnerability!
​I have felt moments of electric pleasure!
I have felt moments of anger!
​I have felt moments of sadness!
​I have felt moments of sure joy!
I have felt moments where Jeff and I feel as one!

​I also have felt....

​I have felt moments of nothingness!
​I have felt moments of numbness!
I have felt moments of disconnection!
​I have felt moments of resentment!
​I have felt moments of please do not f@*king touch me!
​I have felt moments of being completely shut down!

​How can I feel the most electrifying, satisfying, soul awakening experience during this practice one day and then feel distant, numb and disconnected the next day during the practice?

​Day 9-20 have been so amazing

​I have finally in a place where I can ask for an OM session and feel excited about receiving instead of having all this running commentary in my brain. I am allowing myself to feel again. I am allowing myself to receive. I am allowing myself to awaken to all the sensations in my body.

​For years I choose to shut down sensations I felt in my body. I thought I was doing myself a service so I did not have to experience pain but when I shut down my ability to feel painful sensations I also shut of my ability to feel sensations that create amazing pleasure.

​The sensations we feel in our body is what we are all longing for. The sensation of this soft energy that we can feel radiating throughout our bodies. The sensations of a humming bird fluttering around our genitals and then expanding up into our bellies and gently landing on our heart. I knew this existed. I knew that we are energetic beings with the power to feel amazing sensations in our bodies.

​This practice is awakening these sensations in my body. I have felt the sensation of yummy, soft pleasure radiating through my belly into my heart space. I have felt the sensations of entrapment. Wanting to expand but my energy field would not allow it. I have felt the sensation of the most orgasmic, sunshine feeling inside my soul and I got lost in this space for a few moments.

​Orgasmic Meditation is the best practice for awakening the sexual soul. It has provided the space for me to feel safe, loved, supported and completely accepted.

​I love sharing this journey with you all.

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I feel a deeper connection with my heart and soul and my wants and desires. Not just my wants and desires in the bedroom, I am feeling an awakening to my wants and desires of the world. For as long as I can remember I have had a huge block in receiving. The feminine is the essence of receiving. Our bodies are built to receive. I have found that I stay in my masculine energy 90% of the time. I have been trying to achieve, be a go getter, be aggressive, and push my way through life. This is masculine energy. The energy of the doer. This energy is absolutely amazing and I am so grateful that I have the capability of tapping into this side of myself, the only error I have created is that I have choose to stay in this energy of the masculine and it has shifted my life so I am more resistant to what I want.

Here are a few things I have discovered about myself when it comes to being in the masculine most of the time.

• I want to need my husband but I don't allow myself to need him because then I would be co-dependent and who wants to be co dependent? Society has taught me that I should be a big , strong woman who can take care of everything herself.
• I want to completely surrender to my husband inside and outside of the bedroom but I must stay in control and make sure everything is going good.
• I want to feel fully seen by my husband but I place a wall around myself that no one is getting through because I never want to feel deep emotional pain so I stay in charge so I can control my own feelings.

​These are just a few things that come to my mind. I have been working on expressing the softer and more sensual side of myself. 

Orgasmic meditation has really allowed this part of myself to blossom. We have only done the practice 8 times and it has already created huge shifts and released some major blocks. Orgasmic meditation has allowed me to feel fully seen. A part of my soul has been touched that has never been touched before. I feel safe, loved, and seen. With every Orgasmic mediations session I surrender more and more. I allow myself to open up and receive. This practice connects me to my feminine and reminds me of the beauty I truly posses.

​Day 6: I am feeling less resistance when it comes to asking for a Orgasmic Meditation session. I am experiencing the benefits from doing the practice so asking comes from a place of wanting to give myself what my body and soul are craving.  This session I felt a warmth that started at my belly and would move up through my body and arrive at my head. My face would get hot and then this feeling would release. This sequence happened a few more times and then the session was over. I did orgasm on day 6.  

​Day 7: I am loving the way I feel. I have also noticed a difference in my body. My stomach is getting flatter and flatter. I know that I hold onto weight as a protective measure. I haven't felt safe in the world for much of my life so I placed protective weight over my sexual chakra to make sure that I never fully surrender so I don't get hurt again. With this practice I can surrender as I don't have to give anything back. Nothing is expected of me. I just lay back, butterfly my legs open and allow my husband to lightly stroke the upper left quadrant of my clitoris for 15 minutes. Then we share a frame of what we experienced during the practice and then I get dressed and my husband remains clothed the whole time. It is the safest I have every felt in my whole life and I am in a space of such vulnerability. On day 7 I was menstruating but the practice can still be done and I found it really assisted my cramps in releasing.

​Day 8: Today I experienced a stillness inside my body that was so peaceful and so fulfilling. I felt orgasmic energy expanding in my body and then it would release. It felt as though I was having small burst of orgasmic energy pulse through my body the entire session. I did not orgasm this session but it was one of my favorite sessions. I loved it as I could feel this amazing orgasmic sensation while feeling this beautiful stillness and peace.

​I am absolutely loving orgasmic meditation. I feel safe. I feel seen. I feel excited. I feel happy. I feel peace. I FEEL!!!

Wow it has been a little over a week since we started Orgasmic Meditation. I was extremely nervous to begin this practice for a number of reasons. The first reason was a reason of guilt. I had this dialogue running through my head that sounded something like this..." so you are going to lay down with your pants off and have your husband lightly stroke the upper left quadrant of your clitoris for 15 minutes , what's in it for him? You are going to feel so exposed butterflying your legs open and presenting your pussy in all her glory" but the number one thing that kept coming up for me was

• MY ABILITY TO RECEIVE!!!

I have noticed through this practice that I have blocks when it comes to receiving. I am just laying there and my only intent is to receive and feel. Feel the presence of this beautiful person next to me that I trust one hundred percent. To feel the openness of showing my feminine beauty. To feel my ability to be vulnerable. To feel safe and accepted. To feel loved and understood. To feel my body in her unique state of being. TO FEEL!

Day 2 I felt guilty for asking my husband to do the Orgasmic meditation with me as he had worked all day and was exhausted but I asked anyway and allowed myself to receive. The stroke was very light and I didn't feel a whole lot. I felt resistance to receiving because I was feeling guilty for asking. My husband and I then shared how we were both feeling. I was feeling some blockages due to receiving without giving anything back and my husband was feeling really tired.

Day 3  I had the same chatter in my brain regarding my ability to receive. I love giving and doing for others. I also love receiving if I am giving at the same time but to just lay there and just receive is one of the most challenging things I get to do.  The sensations I felt during this Orgasmic meditation session were absolutely amazing. I felt this electric energy building in my body it had a soft intensity that would build up and then release, then it would build up and then release and then it would build up and then release. I never had an orgasm but I did feel the most amazing sensations in my body. It was a beautiful meditation.

Day 4 I felt so amazing all day long. I feel a deep peace as well as a bright inner awakening. This Orgasmic meditation practice was soft, slow and opening. I just closed my eyes and took long deep breathes. I counted to 4 on the inhale and 4 on the exhale. I stayed still and relaxed and felt completely connected to myself and my husband. I focused on my inner energy. Allowing it to expand and flow. I had this beautiful picture of myself standing in a meadow and I heard this voice saying " You are to teach what you are experiencing". I then stayed with the sensations I was experiencing and I had this full body orgasmic release. It wasn't short and intense like a normal clitoral orgasm. It was full, expanding orgasmic energy. It was absolutely amazing. My husband felt focused and connected during this Orgasmic meditation session.

I can feel an awakening inside me that I knew existed. I have been reading books, attending seminars, getting on coaching calls and trying everything externally to feel peaceful and fulfilled.  I now know that what I was looking for was a beautiful connection with another human being. Not just a superficial connection. I am talking about fully opening and exposing my heart, my soul and my pussy. This practice has already shifted so many things internally. I am so excited to keep moving forward and sharing my experiences.

This practice has also increased my desire for sexual connection. When I am getting stroked with nothing expected of me in return it has allowed me to feel connected, safe, loved and most of all seen. I feel seen. This creates  burning coals that with just a bit of oxygen and kindling a fire is born.

What an amazing practice.  The power is in the female orgasm!



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​I feel as thou I have been lead on a journey to discover orgasmic meditation. I have wrote this blog off and on for almost 5 years.  I absolutely love sharing my journey of sexual healing. I post a lot when I am actively working on my sexual energy and then feeling of unworthiness and shame come up and I completely withdraw and stop blogging. 
​I have always been drawn to sex. I love thinking about sex. I love feeling the energy of sexual thoughts. I love dressing up and acting sexy. I use to love watching people have sex( aka porn). I have had sexual relationships with other women and  my husband and I were involved in the swingers lifestyle for about 6 months almost 11 years ago.

I have always felt as thou I was missing something so vital to my feminine energy. I looked for it everywhere. Was it in a delicious meal? Was it in a one on one coaching session? Was it in being a Mother? Was it in being a friend? Was it in having a successful business? Was it in discovering my inner child? Was it in breaking through my emotional blocks? Was it in working out and looking better in my physical body? Was it in juicing for 21 days and feeling lighter? Was it in homeschooling my children? Was it in all the self help books? Was it in the swingers lifestyle? Was it in a happy marriage?

WHERE WAS IT???????????????

​I have grown and learned many life lessons from the items I mentioned above but I still felt as thou I was missing a VITAL part of who I am and what I am suppose to be doing here on this earthly plane.

​I started doing research on Sexual Healing Practices.

​I have experienced sexual trauma and have always felt something blocking me from complete surrender in the bedroom. I have broke through so many layers but there is still something so palpable that I can feel and it is blocking me from going for what I want in life and feeling safe, seen and absolute love. I discovered this practice called Orgasmic Meditation.  I watched videos listening to other peoples experiences. I watched videos discussing how to do the practice and then I waited. I waited for 7 days and I couldn't get the courage to bring it up to my husband. For 7 days I tried to suppress the desire that I had to do this practice. I ate and ate and stuffed my feelings, wants and desires until my soul wanted me to say something. I was reading something that said OM on it and my husband said " What it OM"? I turned to him very calmly and said "orgasmic meditation". His interest was peaked and we talked for about an hour. We decided to OM together.  The other reason I had some blocks come up is the power to receive without giving back right away. I have always been a giver. The thought of laying there with my pants off while my husband is fully clothed and stroking my clitoris for 15 minutes created feelings of guilt and unworthiness. I love taking care of my husband and I fully enjoy making his meals, bringing him something to drink, washing his clothes, and showing my appreciation for him as I feel so grateful that I can be a stay at home mom but when it comes to me receiving without giving some major blocks showed there wicked little heads.

​We have committed to the practice at least 3 times a week but if we are home we will do it everyday.

​Day 1: Wow I feel excited, nervous and a little unsure. We created what the practice calls A Nest. I laid down a comforter, a pillow for my head and two other pillows for my legs to rest on. I got the coconut oil and a few hand towels. We shut and locked the door and began the practice. I took my shorts and my panties off and laid down face up. I butterflied my legs open and my husband sat down next to me on my right side.  He remains fully clothed. His left leg goes over top of me about at my waist line and his right leg slides under my legs. As he sat down next to me and start touching my legs I started to cry. Never in my life have I experienced someone just noticing my pussy. He didn't want anything from me he just wanted to notice my feminine essence and nothing else. It was truly such a beautiful moment. He then got some coconut oil on his left index finger ( I started the timer for 15 minutes) and he started lightly stroking my clitoris. The practice calls for the upper left hand part of the clitoris is to be stroked, if the clitoris was a clock it would be the 1 o'clock position. This was our first time so we ended up not staying in the 1 o'clock position the whole time but we gave ourselves room to learn and grow. I laid there for 15 minutes while my husband stroked my clitoris. This first time I did have an orgasm. That is not the intent of the practice, even thou it is called Orgasmic Mediation. The intent is to just lay, be present, connect with another human being, and allow myself to receive. I did notice after orgasm I didn't love the stroking anymore I wanted my husband to stop but I breathed through it and I kept telling myself " I am safe, I am safe, I am safe". This allowed my to release and to stay present. The timer then went off and we shared what the practice calls a frame. Something we felt in the practice. My husband felt turned on and revved up and I felt a vibration in the lower part of my belly. I got dressed and we folded up our nest and left the room.  This happened at around 10:30 am.

​Here is what I experienced afterwards: I felt a bit more connected to everything around me. I felt an extremely loving connection with my husband. I felt mini orgasmic sensations for the next hour or so. I felt loved, accepted and understood. I felt seen. I felt a deepness that I have not felt before.

​I am feeling excited to continue this practice and share.